thanks. <3 i’ll be back i promise.
Unfollow me, do whatever you want. I just have to much shit in my life. I don’t have time for Tumblr. I don’t have time for anything that has to do with me. Love you all.
He practically begged me. It’s not that I don’t care about him, I do. He’s probably the person I care about the most in this world, besides family. It’s just that, I feel so messed up. I feel messed up and definitly not ready for a relationship. I feel completly detached from reality at most times, and I feel myself being anxious the rest of the time. I think we both cried over ten times tonight. We cried like babies. I know he misses me, I know I miss him too. I just can’t go back. I can’t. I just can’t deal with things like this right now. I just want to get on a plane to Jamaica and come back when school starts. Whatever happened to a stress free summer. It’s worse than the school year. I feel like so many fucked up things have happened to me in the span of three months. I feel litterally lost. At least I can control my food and my exercise. It seems like it’s the only thing I actually have a grasp on. Now that I think about it, I’ve never been so motivated to lose weight. At least there’s an upside to all of this. Hope you guys are having a better night then I am. <3